I have been struggling lately. I don't know why, but when I look at my journal pages, I want to write, but I've got nothing. I pick up a book to start reading and while my hands turn the pages and highlight the words, I don't remember anything that I read. When I hear worship songs lately I hear the words and sense the emotion, but I feel ... to be honest ... nothing. What's going on?
I seem to have fallen into this sense of lethargy. Have you ever felt that way.
Not from a lack of sleep, but definitely from a lack of something. A lack of heart. A lack of passion. A lack of interest. A lack of motivation. A lack of intention, or desire, or energy.
You know, just a lacking ...
At Live Oak we are wrapping up the One Month to Live study and I have found myself riveted by the thought, "How would I live my life differently if I lived like I only had one month left to live?'
I wouldn't be lacking, I can tell you that!
But here I am, knowing that I need to live NOW, but wanting to do it later!
Maybe it's the fall weather. Maybe it's the chest cold I'm battling. Maybe it's just a lack of deep, peaceful rest.
Here's the irony. In this lethargy, this lacking that I'm struggling with, what I need the most, is to be still, without distraction, and listen to the heart of God. I need to press my ear to his chest and rediscover his rhythm. I need to fill the "lacking" in my heart with the beating of his.
This may seem like a strange blog, but its what is on my heart today. Sometimes I get preachy and other times I try to be challenging. Today I think I'm just supposed to encouraging. I pray that anyone reading this will take the time to be still, rediscover God's pulse in their life, and live it now ... lacking nothing.